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 You were done. Just done. You were giving up. "Whore. Worthless. Useless. Waste of space. Going nowhere with life. Stupid. Fat. Ugly." How could you possibly want to carry one with all this verbal abuse from your family and peers? What was the point of life?
 'Maybe it's true....' you thought as you sat on your bed, twirling the sharp blade in your hand. 'I wouldn't be such a burden on everyone if I just disappeared ...' You lightly ran the cool, smooth, sharpened steel blade across the main artery in your arm.
 You chuckled to yourself as you imagined everyone you knew just carrying on with their lives without you. Everyone wouldn't have to deal with you anymore... 'I won't be their burden to carry anymore...' You sighed. You wished you had the guts to just do it. tear a gash up your arm right there! But you couldn't.. 'I'm such a coward....'
 Suddenly, a knock came from your door. You didn't move. You sat there with your __e/c__ eyes glazed over, just staring at the knife on your wrist. The bell rang again, Followed by a voice. "__name__? You home, aru?" called the voice from the other side of the door. It was your best friend and roommate, Yao Wang.
 That's right. You hadn't really spoken to him in a few days. He had taken you in after your parents had kicked you out when you told them you weren't a Christian. When you told them, they freaked out, verbally abusing you and hitting you a few times. They literally threw you out of the house and told you to never come back. So you ended up staying with Yao. You had only left your room to use the bathroom and when you were dragged out by Yao only to have to force you to eat. You would just sit in your room, in the dark, and think about how much better things would be if you weren't around.
 "_-_name__?" he asked again, knocking on the door harder. Still no answer. "Aiyah.." he sighed. "__name__, come on out. I know you're hungry, aru. Let's have some lunch, okay?" he said as he tried to open the door. There was no answer. "__name__." he said sternly. "This is really immature, aru." he picked the lock with the paperclip he kept above the doors molding. "Just hiding in your room like a- __NAME__! WHAT ARE YOU DOING, ARU?!" he shrieked as he opened the door to find you sitting on the bed, knife in your hand and blade pressed against your delicate skin. You didn't acknowledge him. You just sat there and stared at the knife. Yao ran over to you, grabbed your wrists in each hand, spread your arms away from you, and pinned you on your back against the bed. "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING, ARU?!" he yelled. "I-I'm done, Yao..." you said with tears forming and running out of the corners of your eyes like little rivers. "What do you mean 'done', aru?" he asked concerned.
 This sight before him broke his heart. You were usually so strong and happy and full of life, but now, you looked pathetic and fragile, like you would break at any moment.
 "I'm done living, Yao.." you choked out. "I'm tired of being walked on and being a burden to everyone around me.. I want to die.. I don't want to burden you with my presence anymore... I'm worthless. Pathetic. A waste of space. Lower than dirt. I don't deserve to live.. It would just be better if I weren't around..." Yao couldn't believe what he was hearing coming from you. Surely this was all just a prank.. He slightly loosed his grip on your wrists. You smiled sadly and moved the blade to your throat. "Goodbye, Yao. I'll miss you..." You said as sweetly as you could.
 Suddenly, Yao grabbed your empty wrist and pinned it next to your head and took the other wrist, with the knife in it, and held the blade to his own throat. "NO. I refuse to let you kill yourself, __name__. Do you not realize how much I care about you, aru?! This is not how you deal with problems! If you do this, You're just running away from your problems, aru! You are stronger than this! So what if you got kicked out of your house?! So what if your parents hate you?! Even if everyone were to turn against you, I'll still be here for you, aru." "Yao...." you breathed. You couldn't say anything else. You were just so touched by his affection, saying that he cared about you. "I'm sorry, Yao.. But this is just something I need to do.." you said as you tried to move the knife closer to you, but Yao held it in an iron grip at his throat. "If you kill yourself, I will too, aru." he said in a serious voice. Your eyes widened. 'Yao... Kill himself over me?...' "Why would you do that?!" you cried. "Because I care about you so much. Please, just go back to being the happy __name__ I know and I'll be happy too." he said with kind eyes. For a minute, you just lied there with him still pinning you down. Then you relaxed your hand that was holding the knife and smiled weakly. "It's a deal" you whispered.
 Yao smiled at you and got off of you, taking the knife from you. "Good. I'd be so sad if you would have actually done it, aru." he chuckled slightly. "Sorry... I just couldn't think of another way out." you sighed. "Thanks for stopping me, Yao." You smiled, kissed his cheek and went into the kitchen. Yao just stood there blushing tomato red, with his hand on his cheek where you kissed him.
first fanfiction I've put on here! I am so sorry if you think its terrible! *bows* gomen ^^;
Hetalia: Hidekaz Himaruya
Idea: me ^^
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AnimeGeekKatie Featured By Owner Edited Jun 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
I LOVE THIS!



Even though I'm Pentecostal, BUT STILL IT WAS HEART TOUCHING.


And I know some religions like Omish,Buddhists, and Muslims disown their children, none of the Native American religins do. *thumbs up for not disowning my children* xD


And throw out my own child?1 I don't think I could ever do that!
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theotakugurl Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2015  Student General Artist
I'm having a rainbow of emotions right now. 

THAT WAS FREAKING BEAUTIFUL!!!
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PrussiasKitten Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I am from a family with multiple views. My dad is from a catholic family, but he doesn't really care about any of that.. my mother is Pagan... i just welcome all ideas and beliefs. though, my dad has threatened to kick me out, only because i am too much of a tomboy...
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student General Artist
Ah jeez man! That sounds rough.. I hope nothing really serious came out of that threat. If you'd ever want to talk, I'm available 
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PrussiasKitten Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
If he does, oh well. I will go and live with my Aunt in California. She is thinking of moving to China anyways and she said I can come with her. :) so who needs douche nozzle pops
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NatureTune Featured By Owner Edited Jul 30, 2014  Student General Artist
I`am christian too and i can`t imagine throw my own child(i haven`t any) off just because different  idea of thinking/living :o (Eek) It could be discussed.Nod 

Nice fic :bow:
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student General Artist
More people should think like you C: And thank you :3
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Ray711 Featured By Owner Edited Jul 17, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Bu-bu-but I AM Christian! :iconsurprisedplz: DUN DUN DUN! PLOT TWIST!
(Like the story... Only I don't really understand feelings that reader-chan has. I was the best friend that stopped my friend. o—o.)
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student General Artist
Ah. I appreciate your appreciation for my story all the same xD And good for stopping your friend! :3  
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dokidokistar Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Student General Artist
I just got done cutting before this story,I don't want attention but I'm in depression
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student General Artist
I am so proud of you for ceasing your cutting, dear! I really am. It's something I still have trouble with. If you'd ever like to talk or anything, I'm free to talk ^^ 
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MOSHIxMOSHI03 Featured By Owner Edited Jul 18, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
If you didn't want at least a little attention, you wouldn't have mentioned it at all.
Harming yourself isn't going to help your depression in any way, if anything, it probably makes you feel worse. You should talk to someone, whether it's a close friend/family or a stranger, you should really clear your mind and confide in someone else. We human beings need eachother and, even if we don't know eachother at all, it hurts me to know someone is so depressed they're hurt themself.
Please stop...
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IGame101 Featured By Owner May 15, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
 He had taken you in after your parents had kicked you out when you told them you weren't a Christian.


what if i am? :iconzoominplz:
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student General Artist
What if you are, indeed O3O It doesn't really matter if anyone reading this is a Christian or not, I just want people to enjoy the story and realize that they are important and matter, no matter what happens to them in life ^^
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MONKEYPOOOO Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Then.... You could say when you told them you weren't Jewish or something.... :{(
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IGame101 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
good point :3
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heinz56kid Featured By Owner May 3, 2014  Student Writer
:)
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student General Artist
:meow:
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dragonanimegirl180 Featured By Owner May 2, 2014
Awww!!! I started crying!!! It reminds me of myself. I tried too but was stopped by my best friend. I have been happy ever since. I loved the story :)
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it ^^ I'm glad your friend stopped you. You are important and beautiful and deserve all the love and kindness in the world <3
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Erzascarlet0713 Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2014  Student Writer
I think it was so touching and great!!
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you so much ^^
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Erzascarlet0713 Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2014  Student Writer
you're welcome!

*hug
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Masalovicka Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
so sad!!!but still so amazing!!!
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2014  Student General Artist
Thanks ^^
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Masalovicka Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
no problem! ^^
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Moniker-Slash Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aiyah! So kawaii aru~! 
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ToastProducution Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That was me last year. People walking on me cuz I was weak. But this year is different people are nice and a lot of people know who I am
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2013  Student General Artist

well that's good to hear ^^ glad people are nice to you, dear

 

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ToastProducution Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That is a good thing. But some people get hell or get stress when they see my face. XD
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2013  Student General Artist
hahahaha! xD
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ToastProducution Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's ture.
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Lizardhero123 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2013
Cricket: Reader... I felt the same as you for a while reader... have hope :) Remember the butterfly (spread the word) [btw: the butterfly is when you draw a butterfly where you're going to cut (you don't actually cut)]
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Student General Artist
that's a good idea. I wish someone would've told me about that ^^
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Lizardhero123 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013
Cricket: better late then never :)
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Student General Artist
very true ^^
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Pika-PikaCuteness Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2013
...this is so sad and so...amazing...I WISH HE WAS REAAAAALLLLL!!!! *sniffs and sobs in pillow* i need a friend like him! My current friends irl arent even my friends! I only got one true and best friend! If i told her about my problems though...she'll just be my friend out of pity then. ;-; *sniff sniff*
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Student General Artist
I'LL BE YOUR FRIEND!!! ;~; if you ever need anyone to talk to, you can talk to me ^^ i'll be there to listen
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Pika-PikaCuteness Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013
Danke!! ^^ i appreciate that you wanna help and be my friend! So, i'll do de same~! ^_^ if anything else goes wrong today i'll tell chu..
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Student General Artist
I want to help everyone .w. and yay! I mean, I hope nothing goes wrong, but i'm here for you if it does ^^
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Pika-PikaCuteness Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013
Thank you...^^ you so nice~!!!! If anybody hates you then they probably have a screw loose in their damn brains or their just down right stupid!
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013  Student General Artist

awwwww!!!!! you're way too nice for saying that!!! *glomps* .w.

 

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Pika-PikaCuteness Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2013
*hugs back* :{D tis only the truth
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2013  Student General Artist

>/////> you're such a nice person

 

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Sakai-164 Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I wish china was there for me....he'll make me happy...cheering me up TTwTT
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2013  Student General Artist
print or draw a picture of him and talk to him ^^ because he's paper and will listen .w.
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Sakai-164 Featured By Owner Jul 23, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
xD do you think this will work? ;-;
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Student General Artist
maybe .w. but if not, i'm here if you'd like to talk ^^
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Sakai-164 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
sure! :la: so how are you? :'D
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hetaobsessed1 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Student General Artist
i'm good ^^ being a lazy bum but good .w. and you, dear?
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